Commitments and integrity

Note: this post contains spoilers for Week 4 of The Artist’s Way.

It’s Friday and I’m ready to sign-off and head out to a friend’s birthday party. In this recording, I chat a bit about the ups and downs of attempting a reading fast as I make my way through week 4 of The Artist’s Way.

I’m having a little trouble doing this voice note today. I’ve started recording this a few times, and then I am not satisfied, and then I stop recording, and then I listen to what I recorded, and then I stop that, then I delete it, and I start recording again. 

So, I’ve decided I’m just going to record this. What you’re gonna hear is just what I recorded when I committed to recording, and I’m not going to edit this too much, or even at all.

That’s the kind of mood I’m in today. It is Friday, and it’s a little after 5pm, so it might be a little fatigue. I might just be ready for the weekend.

I decided that I was going to be a little discussion around being in Week 4 of The Artist’s Way. The theme for this week is recovering a sense of integrity. And a part of the exercises for the week include not reading. Going on a reading fast. And I did break the fast. I cheated. I cheated, week 4 of 12. I cheated. 

I was on my iPad, and I just wanted to read the news, you know. I was all snuggly in bed and I read the news. And of course there’s nothing good in the news these days. I don’t know why I wanted to read the news, but I guess I had been talking about some current events with some friends of mine, and I just felt the need to open that news app and check in on things. 

So, I did break the fast. What I’m noticing is — there are so many places were reading and image blur. I deleted Twitter off my phone, and I deleted another app — maybe Feedly — off my phone, because I thought I might be tempted. And I thought if those were gone. I think I deleted the news off my phone as well, but I didn’t on my iPad, so that’s how I got caught up. 

I noticed that even on Instagram, there are so many images that have text on them. And people use the stories the stories to kind of write stories, actually. Little mini things. Yeah, so, it’s almost impossible to go without reading, I suppose. But, I haven’t been reading books. I haven’t been reading too much online, and I think it has been good.

My understanding of it is by going on this reading fast, I’ll have more time to do other things. The author was saying, sometimes people get caught up in the reading instead of just doing the work. 

I have noticed there have been times where I have listed to music when I might not have been listening to music, I might just have been sitting quietly reading. 

Or even going back into my Spotify and finding some old artists, and songs, and albums, and stuff that I haven’t listened to in a while. Like Jeff Buckley, and Cat Power (although she has a new album out), and the Singles soundtrack. I don’t know why that one popped up, but I was super into — I’m not sure I was super into grunge — but I liked grunge when I was a teenager. Like, Chris Cornell and all that stuff. So, I was listening to a bit of that. This actually isn’t what I was planning to talk about, but you know, here I am. So this is Week 4.